The Apple (...Of My First Year High School Life)

As days go by, I was learning to adapt to the new environment where I am in. Everyday was like having a brand new purpose even without the stuffs I was used to in my past school. I was looking forward to our P.E. class every afternoon. I really loved to see the girls who can do what boys do. So I was trying hard with all my might to perform better especially in P.E. where we can play tough just like the boys. It felt very empowering to me. That's why I admired "her" very much. She was even better than the boys. She was like a role model or an icon to remind me that I can do everything if I wanted to. Gender is not an obstacle in doing what you want in life. I loved watching every time she bested the guys in volleyball and most especially in basketball. It was so funny that she was even the referee of the boys who were playing basketball. Because of her, I spent most of my P.E. bench time, especially at basketball time =( , daydreaming that I wish I was doing what she was doing right now. She was so proactive and always on the move while I was moving slowly like a turtle, or better yet, a snail. I was imagining myself as lively as hers and outshining in the field of active sports.

However, I remembered how pissed off she was one time when our group played volleyball against their group. We were so nervous to face the strongest group in P.E. (because she was the leader of that particular group) and we are getting so jittery. You can obviously see it from our faces and the way we hit the ball back to their court. Me, as the supporting type of personality (trust me I am more of a team member than a team leader although I could also lead a group in a laissez faire manner though.), I came up of a word to lighten up the group. One of our groupmate tried to hit the ball and went outside of our court instead of batting it back to the opponent's court. I saw how disappointed she was and I told her "OK lang yan, suwerte yan...suwerte" (It's OK, that's good luck...good luck..). Everytime we hit a ball we mention "Suwerte!" even if it a good shot or a bad shot it is still considered "Suwerte" to us. Suddenly we didn't notice that we are starting to win and we were just enjoying ourselves there all along. I even had my first good service that time-- not a net ball, not an inadequate shot! It was just right! I felt so happy that time coz' finally, I've made it to the other line. After almost 2 years of playing volleyball (Grade 5 and Grade 6 extra in my friend's practice games), I was able to make a nice service and not just stopping the ball (where i am good at). Meanwhile, the other group, particularly their team captain was making faces and obviously pissed off, starting to get angry with her groupmates' lack of effort. I can't blame her if we had the good vibes. It's just that I knew right then and there, she wasn't perfect after all. She was short-tempered. I understand it anyway. She's just human. Her strengths has an equivalent weaknesses too. If she is an achiever type, expect it, she hates losing. ^_^ Don't worry, even if she was pissed off that time, she still looks pretty in my eyes. LOL. Yeah I just admired her that's it. The sporty petite and skinny girl who is so proactive and fun and smart too! She was always being herself and I salute her for that. Too bad that my admiration should end when she had a rumored girlfriend or M.U. Nobody confirmed but the class considered it as a mutual understanding between the two and I was happy for them. I was okay staring at her from afar and looking at her twinkling eyes paired with long and thick eyelashes, plus, I really liked her dimples. Gosh, I love people who have dimples and long thick eyelashes. It doesn't matter if you are a girl or a boy as long as you have those qualities I'll admire you for that. LOL. The whole school year, I think I never talked to her. There was just one instance that she talked to me, I don't remember why but I am sure what she said was a good comment. I was flattered that time and blushed...and that's it. =) (oh, so lame...hahaha)


**To Be Continued...